In October 2012, I decided that the gaslighting, threats of suicide, sexual abuse, and daily uncertainty had to stop one way or the other. His erratic behavior showed me that he no longer gave a f#@% about me and rocked my imagined sense of security. Fighting back was not the answer, a safe exit was. I knew then that I would have to Get the F#@% Out with my life.
Domestic violence is born from a uncontrollable desire to gain and maintain power over his or her intimate partner. Abusers believe they have the right to control their partners, and they even enjoy the high it gives them. They often overestimate their worth and believe that their own feelings and needs should take priority over anyone else's. Their many abusive tactics are used to make those they claim to love feel less than and that they are undeserving of respect.
~ Gaslighting - is when your emotions, words, and experiences are twisted and used against you, causing you to question your reality.
~ Being constantly bombarded with threats of suicide is emotional blackmail.
~ Performing sexual acts just to keep the peace in your home is abuse.
~ Having to watch your back in your own home is mental torture.